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My father's life was barely extended through blood transfusions , and as

               we had to pay for the blood and hospital treatment , the family's livelihoo

               d was not easy due to the long-term illness .


               After suffering so much, he eventually passed away .



               My grandfather, who was a decorated teacher, was generous , good at bu
               siness , and wealthy .

               He was a person who cared very much for his family .

               On the other hand, my father was incompetent, cared for his friends and

               neighbors rather than himself and his family, and died after living with ill
               ness all his life ... .



               Now that I think about it , I was so foolish .
               Did my father become incompetent because he wanted to be so incompet

               ent ?  If you don't do what you want to do ,

               How much stress did you have to take your anger out on your mother at

               home ?


               I was too young to help , Also, now that I think about it as an adult, I feel

               very sorry for not being able to understand my father's bitterness .
               As I became a soccer player, my father's only pleasure was to visit ever

               y soccer game I participated in and hide behind to cheer him on .

               My father always felt sorry for me .


               Even though he never once said he was sorry , I could feel it in my hear

               t . must have been proud of me for working hard as an athlete even thoug

               h you couldn't feed me or clothe me well . You always followed me to an
               y stadium and watched me , hoping that I would do well .



               , I never once told my friends that my father was my father because I wa

               s afraid that someone might recognize my father, who was wearing shabb
               y, shabby clothes. In fact , I was afraid that someone would say that he
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               was my father .


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