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I couldn't die because of my beloved mother, who believed in me, depen

ded on me, and loved me so much .

Also , after being treated so unfairly and experiencing something so terr
ible, I was just at a loss as to how I should live the rest of my life .

Also, being with people is so terrible ,,,,,

I decided to end my life quietly, changed my suit, shaved, fasted, and did
not drink a single sip of water. I was saved by three pastors who came t

o help the less fortunate . God saved me . If the pastors hadn't come dur

ing that process, no one would have come there , I would have starved t
o death like that . That's how I avoided my second death .

The third death was when I went into the mountains of Gangwon-do wit

h a Bible and tried to die while reading the Bible. There was a cave in th
e hunting ground where I last hunted when I was young .

On the way, I saw the light of a small church and went in .

I was praying loudly without even knowing the pastor was inside , and th
en the pastor heard me . I was able to avoid my third death thanks to the

pastor's recommendation .

The three suicide incidents brought about many changes in my thinking .
I was so upset about how I should live that I couldn't sleep or even try t

o sleep at any moment . So, whenever I felt angry, I read the Bible .

When I got angry, I read the Bible, and when my anger subsided, I went
about my life. I was so afraid of how I could live my life like this .

Meanwhile, one day it suddenly occurred to me that if I can't die on my

own terms , let's do our best to reveal the truth ! So, I decided to do my
best to uncover the truth, focusing on the G.O.B project I did .

From then on, I have been working on the Giga Korea business with all

my might . It was really unfair . There is nothing more or less than that .
QR I was so wronged that I didn't know what to do, and it's still the same to

this day .

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